Madinat al-Muslimeen Islamic Message Board
|10/29/00 at 18:20:41|
Insha'allah i hope you are all well.
hmm, where do i start? so much to say, so few words in my vocabularly!
Just some thoughts really, as life seems to whizz by. so much can change so quickly.
About 2 weeks ago, i had my last day at work after two years of working at the department i was working in (i was a research assistant at a university). Last week i got married! And next week, insha'allah, i will be going to Morocco for nine months!!
So needless to say, things have been a bit chaotic for me. But at the same time, it's been good, alhamdulillah. The past two/three years has been a difficult time for me for many reasons, but during during this time my faith, or rather my practice, has yo-yo'd up and down so much, and unfortunately the down's tended to be worse than the ups. And i was getting to a point where i thought it wasn't going to change, or get better.
But the weird thing is, just a few days after leaving work, i was so much more relaxed...so much more focused, and so getting my prayers on time :). I even read a whole book, which is something i've not done for years! And i can even sit and read the longer threads on this message board without thinking "it's too long...i have to go and do something else"!
I just can't believe how so little time can change so much. Even when i had time to do things before, i had such a short attention span, that i'd end up not doing anything worthwhile. But i realised as well that i could have so easily have spent another five or ten years in the same state, if i hadn't of actually consciously thought...i need to get out! I need to do something different, that i'm doing for my own sake, what will better myself, instead of staying stagnant for a long period. I'm glad to be reawakened!
Anyway, things aren't perfect, but I think i've made an important step in regaining what's important, like the days when my day revolved around my prayers and not vice versa as it had become recently.
well...just some ramblings of mine from my newly refreshened mind (which is still a bit like mince cause of all the travelling i've done..but i'm getting there!!). I don't know how much of this actually makes sense to anyone who isn't living inside my mind, but i wanted to say something, espcially because i'm aware that i won't be able to log on to jannah.org every weekday :( (one sacrifice i had to make when leaving work!!) Even though I didn't really participate in the 'serious' discussions, just logging on and reading people's views/opinions/articles/references/and even occasionally jokes (;)) helped me a lot in the time i was down, just by keeping me aware and in remembrance of what was, and is, important. So thanks everyone!
But i do hear that internet cafe's have sprung up everywhere in Morocco, so i should still be able to get my jannah.org "fix".
This is the first time i've really posted anything personal, which i'm not so good at doing, so this message may self-destruct in, um, a few days.....but don't worry, if it does i'll replace it with the penguin joke you all love so much!! ;)
|10/29/00 at 22:26:32|
Alf mabrook on your wedding! May Allah bless it for you, your husband, and both families. Ameen.
Don't delete your message. I think it's very inspiring. I, for one, am really delighted to see that this messageboard is making such an impact on people's lives. Another reason why this "place" rocks! (Jannah, don't put that in the Madina News please!)
|10/29/00 at 22:56:48|
congrats on ur marriage! :)
and i know what you are talking about. I'm going through the same thing, sort of, you know... I want to get the heck out of here too. Do something different for a change.
|10/30/00 at 09:39:14|
|Assalamalaikum wa rahmatullah|
Mabroooooook on your marriage and new life. May Allah bless you both and your families. Ameen
I think in a way I can understand what you are going through. I have a research job too and its nearing a two year period at the end of which my contract expires. A few days back I was thinking, what am I going to do after that, and I felt that just staying at home (at least for a while) might not be such a bad idea. And who knows, I might get married too :)
when you're working, the days just seem to blend into each other. So a change of scene and events, feel so nice. of course, marriage is certainly a very big change. :)
and you're right about the Jannah board. Everything here is so nice.
Wishing you all the best
|10/30/00 at 22:16:21|
|tree congratulations on your marriage, and good luck in morocco, sounds like you're in for an awesome experience!!! i agree with change, we all need to get out of our rut now and then, otherwise we keep making the same mistakes over and over again and never grow in our lives...|
i do remember you posting on the old msg board and this one, you will be missed :)
take care insha Allah and keep us in your duas :)
|10/31/00 at 06:03:34|
Assalamu alaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuhu
Congratulations on getting married sister!!!:) I am real happy for you.
Your post just reminded me of the following verse that I had recently heard from another sister........
"Ye shall surely travel from stage to stage" (Surah 84:19)
Hope Allah blesses this new stage of your life with a stronger eeman and happiness.
|10/31/00 at 08:14:40|
|Tree: congratulations on your marriage. May Allah make your life with your husband a blessed one. Keep in touch from time to time and let us know how it is in Morocco.|
|10/31/00 at 09:16:39|
aSallaams Sis ! and bigtime congratulations.
InshAllah you + husband will have the best of both worlds.
your thoughts in the post are good stuff
and I think its true -- easy to get into the work paperchase and not give deen +/ one's self or family the attention devotion we should.
Remember JamaaleFinaah in Marakech in the evening is a must!
|10/31/00 at 20:18:55|
thanks everyone for your dua's. Reading your posts brought tears to my eyes and joy to my heart.
So first thing i'll do when i get to Fes is find an internet cafe! :)
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