Jazakumullahu khairan for all the du'as, replies and tips. InshaAllah, I will bear all of that in mind, and inshaALlah, will see what fits me best, and what will be best for me. Please, do keep the tips up. I'd love to hear more.
Alhamdulillah, my daughter didnt cry when I left her for a doctor's appointment yesterday. And today, she went up the school bus with her cousin and aunt to go to her cousin's play school coz the school invites younger "siblings" over every 3rd Tuesdays, and alhamdulillah, she didn't cry, though I think I detected a nervous smile as she looked through the window at me.
We have told her abt the hajj since summer and I've made a calender and we draw pictures of what we did/ going to do so that she has some perception of time. I told her this morning that it'll be 5 more days before I fly. And she said. "Wow, that's so many days!" hmmm
I really hope that Allah soothes her and be her Companion, when we are away. Thing is, she's so attached to me, she told me that I could only have 1 child, and no other children. Hmmm, strategies for the big news would be handy.
Frankly, I don't know if Allah will test me with missing her. I thought about how Rasulullah said that for a woman, her hajj would be jihad. And detaching oneself from one's children after having them lived in one's womb, and going though the pain of childbirth and being there and thinking of them, even when they are not thinking of you. Its like the whole world revolves around them.
And now, I'll be leaving her and travelling all alone, no child - just me and Allah. Grasping the knowledge with yaqeen (certainty) that Allah will take care of her is struggle itself.
A sheikh told me of a tabi'n (or one of the salihoon, I can't remember), and he said,
"My 1st hajj, I saw the khalq (creation), my 2nd hajj, I saw my nafs, in my 3rd hajj, I saw the house of Allah, then, I 'saw' the Lord of the house"
Trying to look beyond the khalq to see the hand of Al-Khaliq (The Creator) in this journey, is a struggle. And I fear of returning home, being the same person as I am.
Jazakumullahukhairan for everything,
P.S. I've always thot that fast food restaurants would hv international standards of hygiene, would it be safe to assume the ones in Saudi are as good. Would you recommend consuming those over others?
P.P.S What do you think of wearing facial masks? (the white one, not the beauty one)