I know my msg shouldn't be mentioned here ..
because u re all really good muslims having strong iman (mashaa Allah, may Allah swt raise your eman & mine too ..
& i feel i'm a bad one all the time, all my efforts, thoughts, ideas goes for non-sense, I even have bad thoughts
about iman doing much efforts to keep them away.
Lately, I've been concerned with someone, i really love him,but i know he'll never propose for marriage.
Anyway, i try to stop communicating with him (academic-work relationship), but sometimes i had to for work purpose,
& here i'am thinking of him all the time, now my Iman is just a secondary concern, i even couldn't stop some
hypocritical thoughts to gain his admiration (may Allah forgive meeeeeeee).
I feel helpless & desperate .. Am i really a bad girl
I've been praised well in a kind family .. my Iman was so tight in the past ..
Asking for your duaa,