JOURNEY TO TRUE FAITH
A three decade ago, my journey began,
Now I wish, it was stopped the same day it begun..
U shall be wondering,
What is that real worry bothering,
Hear my story,
But do not feel sorry.
Rather save yourself from such misery...
All praise to The Lord,
To him, I owe the highest regard..
I was born with the guidance towards right path,
I was blessed with the religion of true faith,
To worship one lord, who neither beget nor begotten....
However, I failed to realise this wonderful blessing,
And In my own way, I started wandering..
Yet, I did not completely forget my creator,
For, at times of need, I raised my hands to him in my prayer,
For I knew, he is the all-giver and my sustainer..
The moment, I get what I need,
I Pushed my way back and took no heed...
Everything on earth looked so beautiful,
I did not then realize, it was a thought of evil...
For, the creator himself says,
This earth is made beautiful for the evil eyes...
I wished to own a beautiful heaven,
To achieve, a lot money I tried to earn...
Through every means, Money kept flowing in,
Eventually, accumulated every sin...
I wandered here and there,
To seek the real pleasure..
In its search, I realized soon,
The two reason for sick life of human,
One, man for woman,
Other, woman for man,
This is my own perception,
I was no exception,
None shall resolve,
But Only u can solve,
There can be only one solution,
In one own hands, lies the salvation,
Keep no man or woman in ur emotional association...
However, I sought refuge in a chemical,
What else it cud be other than alcohol,
It had control over my mind, body and soul,
I did not call out to my lord to save,
Rather, I became its slave,
I dug myself, the deepest grave...
All that I had, soon deprived,
Every night, for peaceful sleep, I strived,..
I then remembered that Every time I sin,
I ud hear a voice deep within,
It ud try to keep me at bay,
But I ignored it all the way,
When I wondered where it is gone?
I heard it speak to me again,
I felt as tho I came back to my true sense,
I realized, I have built myself a fence,
That kept away from my true saviour,
And responsible for my ill behaviour...
At last, in my distress,
I cried out sincerely to lord, to save me from this stress,
I laid down in prostration,
Begging to relieve me off this depression,
who else other than he, shall fulfill our needs,
I hate to look back at my own deeds...
Oh lord, u gifted me a beautiful life to cherish,,
Now, I stand responsible for its perish..
For, I failed to realise,
My life's real purpose..
Now I feel chill sense of fear,
For I became truly aware..
Now, I am in true despair,
For, I lost all this time to prepare,
For the Preparation of the real test,
That to serve u, the master of North, South, East and west...
Oh my dear friends,
The true life is yet to begin after ur life here ends....
Break down that fence,
That keeps u away from ur true sense....
Before the angel blew the trumpet,
Before u reach that moment,
When u ud be fearfully awaiting ur judgement,
When u shall not be given a chance to repent,
Wen it ud be too late to realize, the heat of the blaze,
Submit ur will to the one who created,
He, the most exalted.......
The state of many Muslims , May Allah accept repentance and forgive the sins of our umma and grant us all jannatul firdaus